Being a mom is tough

Mommy: This is definitely the hardest job I’ve ever had in my entire life.

My little dude is only 12 days old. Countless tears have already been shed. My patience has been tried beyond its earthly limit. I’m going stir crazy in my house.

My recovery has been so easy. Unbelievably so, actually. Because of that, the first few days at home I felt so good I knew I could do everything and then some. I wanted to be super mom. And I did do it all.

Now that Nathan has been back to work for a few days, I’m a little more than overwhelmed. I’m actually a little resentful toward him because he gets to get away for 8 hours a day. I don’t. I’m here all day and all night. I do everything. And I’m pissed off about it to be completely honest. I know I have to during the day but a little help at night would be nice. Instead he wants to sit on his computer and play games all night.

I’m pretty sure I’ve got a mild case of the baby blues. I’m trying my hardest to keep that in check because I don’t want it to become full fledged postpartum depression and let it go without some help.

To those stay at home moms out there, I salute you. To anyone who says having that as your job is not a real job you obviously never taken care of a newborn 24/7. I always wanted to be a stay at home mom. I never wanted to put my kid in daycare and risk missing a lot of milestones. But honestly I don’t know if I’m cut out to be a stay at home mom.

And to those moms who have more than one child: I don’t know how you do it. And to those with multiples: you must be a saint.

This is hard work. And it’s the most important job I have ever had. And it’s also going to be the most rewarding job I’ve ever had.